I Am So Excited For Christmas

I'm beyond excited for Christmas this year.

Not for the tree stuffed with presents.

Not for the tables overflowing with food.

Not for the lights.

Oh those are all good, fun and exciting things, but

I'm excited because I feel like it is a time of rebirth.

A new start.

To let old things go.

A chance to do better and to be better.

I know this is usually something saved for New Years resolutions, but I'm not much into that.

I fail at resolutions every. single. time!

 

The day the tender little baby Jesus was laid into the straw bed was the day everything changed.

I want to be changed

For me this year it is my prayer and hope

for new life

for healed hearts

  to release burdens

   to pray more and talk less cause Lord knows I can talk
   to mend what is broken

to listen and hear not listen to respond

to make all the small tender memories etched on my heart.

I am so ready for all of it.

So much so that it brings that lump up into my throat and my eyes fill with tears.

I've learned some big lessons this year and lessons aren't always easy nor are they very fun.

My heart is tender even when I appear to be made from tough stuff.

I need to slow down because I have realized I am missing out on some really good stuff.

Letting go of someone you love relentlessly is really hard.

Crying really does make you feel better. You know the ugly cry where your eyes and nose double in size and you fear you may never breath from your nose again because its clogged. That cry; do that.

I'm sure I am not the only one ready for some changes; ready to lay down all the burdens that I think I need to carry on my own and to realize

 that even in the trials of life we can stand on the promise that The Lord is faithful to hear our prayers.

The lessons of life are the building blocks of our story.
Every single story has a purpose and a reason.
It's makes us who we are.

However you choose to celebrate your Christmas I wish you the Merriest of days filled with love, hugs and overflowing hearts.

Blessed is me...